Kian Jordan paul Southgate

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remembering our kian born the 20th october 2006
flew to heaven 19th december 2006 aged 8 weeks X 3days
PASSED AWAY DREAMING...................... SIDS..............
brother to gone too soon baby teagen dalton
cousin of baby jason patmore x friend of baby estelle smith x baby brook southgate.
also gone too soon friend to stuart x russel boswick x tina bromley x
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THE DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT I WAS SHOCKED AS MINE X UR DADS RELATIONSHIP WAS NOT STABLE X HAD
NOT BEEN FOR TO LONG
BUT DADDY PROMISE NO MATTER WHAT HE WOULD STAND BY US

... SO THEN CAME The 20TH/10/06 MUMMY HAD TO SORT WHERE UR BROTHERS X SISTERS WERE GONNA GO AS U
WERE LITTLE EARLY MUMMY WAS IN TOTAL AGONY NOTHING LIKE ID EVER FELT BUT THEN THE 9 MONTHS NEVER
FELT RIGHT....EVENTUALLY THINGS WERE SORTED x me x katie brett got to the hospital x i was 7cm i
have never felt agony like it i really thought i was going to die...(nothing was right)
i was then handen a little boy i loved u instintly but was horrified by how swollen x bruised u were
even your eyes had ruptured
i was worried but was told this can happen with quick births x as this is what a doctor had said i
believed it
on discharge the midwife saw us leavin x asked if they were ok with it i said yes she seemed totally
horrified that was on the saturday on the sunday kian was back in hospital x spent many wks back x
forth to hospital with all sorts of problems....
he then came out of hospital after 2 weeks he seemed to be at his best x i thought things had
started to look up as he was the best id seen him,
A few days later was the worst of my life i woke to find kian had fell to sleep dreaming x neva
woke.......kians sister jodie x jade were present when i found him x have been deeply effected by
the sad events they witnessed that fatal morning they idolised our kian.

AN ANGEL IN THE BOOK OF LIFE
WROTE DOWN OUR BABYS BIRTH
WHISPERED AS SHE DID SO
TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH .......

fell to sleep x gods angels took him by him hand x wispered lets forever play in fairy lands. so
that very night they flew away left my broken heart the very next day................

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...I MISS YOU SO MUCH...
no one nos the heartache no one nos this pain
it will only ever stop hurtin
when u r in my arms again
ill never forget that morning i will never forget those tears
i no they we only shared days but oh how i wish they were years
i love u my little man with all my heart x more
never dose a day pass where my heart is not sore
they say that times a healer x time will ease my pain but what do u do as a mother when u feel u r
to blame............
i miss u little angel i miss u every day i miss u every night x i tell god that as i pray
i hope ur flyiing high as high as u can get as listen my little man...
you are the most beautifull little boy ive ever met ....................
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leaves behind sister jodie aged 7
jade aged 3
brother jamie-lee aged 4
jayden aged 1
our angel little boy x x x
mummy wrote this when you flew to heaven....

Returned to God, to live in heaven to be the little angel he was on our earth...

To good for this world and unable to stay
If only he could stay just one more day
Recalled to heaven, my angel was needed
Please not my Kian, I begged and I pleaded
He is too young and he is mine
He is my world, my bright sunshine

I heard an angel whisper and say
Take my hand young Kian it is your time
You must come this way, you cannot stay

His tiny heart gave a final beat
I will never hear the patters of his tiny feet
My heart is aching, my eyes do weep
Why my darling sweetheart,
Why did you not wake from your sleep?

God had only placed you on loan you was not to keep
I will never again see your beautiful smile
Why I ask god? Why could you not leave him a while?

I am broken hearted, so lost and alone
My darling Kian I need you home.
God’s angels have taken you until we meet again
In a better place, I just don’t know when

My darling Kian, I love you so much
Your stunning eyes, your gentle soft touch
My heart is broken into little bits
I long to kiss your sweet soft lips

I only had you for such a short time
Everyday for you I pine
I don’t understand why god chose to take you away
There was so much I had not done, so much I had to say

So now it is time for us to let go
To say our final goodbyes
I shake and I sob, I ask so many whys
Is there a god, or is he all lies?

So until we meet again little man
Your memories stay in my heart
I close my eyes and remember you
We are never far apart

So for now Ill say goodbye and I love you
Daddy’s heart is broken into two
He sends his love, blows a gentle kiss
Forever in our hearts you will be sadly missed
Love always Mummy and Daddy…

Kian leaves behind two sisters and two brothers…
and now has a new baby sister jasmine-kiana southgate
born 18th/10/07 two days befor kians 1st birthday
an angel sent from another little angel..... our kian

Some people only dream of angels
I held one in my arms

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In Memories of a Precious Little Boy.



We would like to thank everyone for their
Kindness and support during this difficult and sad time

Kian I’d not have a good start to life,
After a traumatic labour he spent two weeks in the special care unit, only
Then once returning home a week later he returned to hospital with
Broncilitus. Only to spend more of his short little life there.
Not a good start but he soldiered on and sadly when Kian passed away he
Was like any other baby and the best I had ever seen him

In the morning I found Kian was the worst day of my life, as he was asleep
Next to me on the sofa. My first thought was that I had suffocated him
And the not knowing ripped my heart apart.
Although the results have returned showing that Kian never woke from
His sleep due to cot death
I will never stop wondering if him lying so close to me
Deprived him of oxygen and to make matters worse Kian had a monitor in
His crib, which if he had been laying in when he stopped breathing, an
Alarm would have sounded to let me know.
The guilt I feel will be with me forever and the not knowing will always
Make me wonder if it could have been prevented.

We all love to cuddle our babies, but please after my experience take
Caution and not sleep with them and invest in a baby breathing monitor.
They do not cost much and your child’s life is priceless.

Thanks again,
Kian leaves behind two sisters and two brothers.
Jodie and Jade, Jamie-Lee and Jaydan
Sadly Missed, Never Forgotten.
kian now has a baby sister jasmine-kiana x

mummy will always love you, you will always be in my heart........

Thank you too everyone for there support.....
thank you for ur candles they mean so much xxxxxxxx